We have a refluxer!

Well we got the test results back from Mason's Upper GI test yesterday and he does have a mild case of acid reflux.  Which normally wouldn't be an issue, if he didn't have laryngomalacia. But the reflux further irritates the throat making him not wanting to eat.  So we have him on a medicine as of today that will help with the reflux.  He apparently has silent reflux, where he swallows it after it comes up, similarly to an adult with acid reflux.  So not only does it burn on the way up, it burns on the way back down as well.  My poor little guy.  Hopefully he feels better soon.

To add to the crap lately, the dishwasher and now the refrigerator have both shit the bed.  Dishwasher I can handle not working for a while, but the fridge, not so much.  Repair man can't come until Monday so we are dorm fridging it until then. We literally have the worst luck ever of any couple when it comes to appliances.  

On the plus side, yes there IS a plus side, 1/2 of the crops are harvested.  Which means, once Hurricane Sandy goes through, I will have my husband back sooner than I expected.  They hauled some serious ass today trying to beat the rain.  I just really want my husband back.  It's hard taking care of a newborn as it is, but coupled with living in the middle of nowhere and not having anyone to talk to, it makes it tough.  Mason and I did take our first solo "fun trip" last night and went to see my grandma who hasn't seen him yet, and then to my mom's for a quick visit.  I am very lucky, he LOVES his car seat and goes right to sleep when in it.  :)  He's a traveler which is a good thing

I am starting to feel a lot better so hopefully when I go to the dr. next week he will release me and I can start doing normal things again.  I have been cleaning a little here and there trying to get my strength up.  I never realized how hard it is to recover from a surgery like that.  It's not easy.  Especially when your hormones are freaking CRAZY!!!!

1 Month Old ... and a Diagnosis...

Well little man was 1 month old on Saturday.  It's hard to believe he's that old already.  It's been a LONG month though.  We went to an Ear Nose and Throat Dr. for him on Friday.  He squeaks when he breaths, and I mean SQUEAKS.  It's to the point it keeps us up sometimes at night.  My pediatrician referred us to the ENT.  After a heart breaking scope up his nose, he is diagnosed with Laryngomalacia.  It's a softening on the windpipe cartlidge.  Most people when born there's is hardened, little man's is still soft.  There's no real treatment for it other than to wait it out and eventually it will harden.  Only about 5% of cases get bad enough to require surgery or a traech tube until it's healed (yea that about sent me off the deep end when I heard that, but he's not that bad thankfully)  It's probably worse for us than it is for him.  However, the one thing that does make it worse is acid reflux.  So we have an upper GI test scheduled for Thursday to see how bad his reflux is and from there they will give him some medicine.  The reflux coupled with the Laryngomalacia will cause severe irritation of his throat. This can cause more ear infections and sinus infections if not treated properly.  By treating the reflux, it will lessen the irritation and not allow the infections in as easily.  

I seriously feel sometimes like we are always dealt the bad cards.  We tried so hard to have a baby and then found out we couldn't without IVF.  We had one failed IVF, and then a successful FET.  I had a very easy pregnancy but ended up with a crappy labor and even longer recovery.  And now that we have this sweet little boy, we've had him at numerous doctor appointments and now he has to deal with this.  If I was a piece of crap mother who didn't want children, I'd have 5 kids and they'd all be healthy.  But because I want my child we end up with having to go through everything the hard way.  Life is truly not fair sometimes.  And I've just come to accept that, as hard as that is.  Not matter what though, he will be one spoiled little boy.  I can't help it.  

As always...here's a few pictures of my sweet little boy!

3.5 weeks old!

Doesn't seem possible my little man is 3.5 weeks old already.  I wouldn't trade my little man for the world!!! He's the most precious little thing in my life.  It really is true that life changes when you are a mommy.  I used to never go out without doing my hair, makeup, etc.  I've been in public several times without so much as even a shower and my glasses still ok.  But my little man looks like a million bucks!  lol.

The past 3.5 weeks haven't exactly been easy though.  I don't want to sound like I'm whining but dammit I probably do and I don't really care.  Ok...2 days after we were home Dustin got sick with a cold, 2 days later, I got it.  Then our parents all got it so no help from anyone there.  Doing it all by myself thinking that if Dustin stayed away I wouldn't get it, probably wasn't good for my healing of my incision.  In fact I know it wasn't!  Then Mr. Mason started squeaking when he breathes, sleeps, eats, etc.  Pretty much all the time.  We've been to the ER (first time mommy and daddy we were concerned) and the Pedi 3 times.  It still worries me constantly!!!!  They also think he has reflux so we got moved to Soy Formula.  Not impressed but Dr. knows best right?  This week I just didn't feel right, spiking fevers of 101-102 at night, pains in the side, after call my OB 3 days in a row, they did bloodwork, checked my incision and did a urine culture.  Low and behold UTI!  Oh joy.  Yesterday I ate some undercooked chicken on accident so I'm hoping I don't get sick from that.  Then last night, my dishwasher SHIT THE BED.  I just want the happy healthy mommy and baby stories everyone else has.  It took us 4 years and $14,000 to have him, had a horrible labor and we come home to all this.  Life sometimes just ISN'T fair!!!!!

Ok Whine is over...I will leave this post with a few pictures of my little guy.