I feel like a BALLOON

I'm SO BLOATED that if you popped my stomach I would probably float around the room like a popped balloon. Hopefully this is a good sign. Bloating is good in this process right?? Other than that, nothing really different going on symptom wise. Still haven't told any of the parents, want to wait until we are for SURE.

Dustin's currently working on renovating the laundry room. We bought front-loader stackables when we moved in so we could put a wash bin in for the dog. Well dog has turned into dogs and tubby and more tubby are too fat for the wash bin. So we took it out and are unstacking the washer and dryer and putting kitchen cabinets above for storage. We are also repainting. :) He hates the color, but he'll get over it. He always does.

The waiting game

The waiting game literally sucks!!!! lol. I hate having to wait a week for every "milestone" I'm an instant gratification kind of person, that's why I have a kindle. When I want a new book I want it now. I don't want to wait for it to come in the mail, or drive to the store. I want it now! :) That's how I roll.

So far So good!

Beta #1 was yesterday. My level was 651. They like to see above 100 for 14 days past transfer. So I have a very high number. I'm happy but also weary. I know that there are so many more milestones to hit. I have to go back the 1st for another test to see if it has tripled. Then they will schedule me for an u/s to see what's in there, and how many. It's so hard, I feel like i have been robbed of being able to have any excitement. I worry everytime I go to the bathroom, every twinge I have, every test I have to take for fear that it will be taken from me. This should be an exciting time, but it's so hard to be excited when I know how reality can be. Hopefully if we get a good report next week, we'll tell our parents at that time, I don't want to get anyone's hopes up. We did that the last time and it was a hard time.

3 days until Test day

We had our transfer on Jan 11 and we have our blood test to see if Round #2 worked. This time I am feeling alot different than I did the last time around. I'm hoping that's good. Wednesday is milestone #1. There are many more that we have to hit for this to actually "work" and I am trying to be positive. It's so hard though. Especially when I don't have my family to lean on. We decided this time around to not tell them, it was just too hard the last time to let them down. This time we only told a few people just to have a saving grace. I never realized how hard this would be to hide! Sooo good thoughts for milestone #1!

Goodbye 2011 ~ Hello 2012

Well it's officially 2012. Thank GOD! 2011 literally was one of the crappier years in the past many we've had. I am hoping 2012 is a little better and hopefully more exciting.

This year I have chosen Acceptance as my word of the year. I have accept the things I cannot change and try not to let it affect the rest of my life. This year I have become very "sharp and pokey" towards people and I need to change that.I need to use the motto from work "It is what it is!"

I also need to work on being less of a clutter keeper and hoarder. My house is full of useless paper that I don't need to keep. Maybe this year will be less clutter both in house and in mind.