Happy Halloween.

I've never been a huge fan of halloween. Actually it scared the bejeeebies out of me. I can remember as a kid my dad would take me out trick or treating and my mom would stay home. My dad knew I hated trick or treating and so we'd go up our street and down the next street that my aunt lived on. We'd hang out at her house all night and then she'd give me her left over candy and that way mom never knew!!!! lol.

Here's a picture of my brother and I carving our pumpkins when we were kids. That was my most favorite part of halloween!!!!

Faith and Love

Lately I've had alot of faith and love for a good friend of mine. Unfortunatley early this morning she lost her battle and she went to be with the lord. I know god really needed a good teacher up there and that's why he took her but it's still very very hard to swallow. She was one of my best friends and she died for something she always wanted...a child. She was the most selfless person I knew, other than her sister. I hope her family, husband, and daughter can have peace in the future and celebrate the life she had here on earth. I know she touched so many lives and she will be missed tremendously.

Jamie - you will be missed!

Exhausted

Emotionally and physically. Today was the 13th day in a row I had to go into work. Between all that has gone on this week I'm a stressed out exhausted mess. My bathroom issues have kicked back into full force from my nerves and tomorrow will be my "me" day. I have no plans except tomorrow evening I need to go to the funeral home to support Jason during his mom's viewing. Poor kid. I can't imagine what he's going through. It must be tough.

This coming week we sign out papers for our mortgage. I still can't believe we bought a house! We close Dec 8th. we have alot of work to do once we move in but that can keep us busy.

Thank god for little miracles.

This week has been a bit of an emotional rollercoaster for me. Yesterday we counter offered on a house we were looking at and they accepted. This is GREAT news. No more castle on wheels, no more shoebox, and I will have an attached 2 car garage.

However...it was very hard to celebrate. A very very good friend of mine delivered a healthy baby girl Tuesday but mommy had some serious complications. We lost her once and she fought to come back. She is one tough little cookie. She is in a very good hospital in pittsburgh now but she still needs lots of good thoughts and prayers. She has a long road ahead of her. And her baby needs her mommy!!!

Also yesterday another good friend's mother lost her battle with cancer. She had only been diagnosed 1 month ago and she lost her struggle last night. My heart goes out to my friend and his father and his son.

So this week has been bittersweet for us. It makes you think what's important in life. That's your friends and your family. The little things you take for granted could come and go before you know it.

One Year

Our one year anniversary is tomorrow. It's so hard to believe we've been married a year. It's been a good year though. Not too many obstacles to overcome. We did get a dog and realize that we can take care of him. So, we are somewhat confident that someday we could have a child. ha ha!

My mom I think is expecting kids soon. She bought us John Deere baby socks for an anniversary gift. YIKES!!! She's got a way to go before I'll need those.

Rain Rain and more Rain is what this month has seemed like. Not only did we lose corn this week but everything is flooded. It just keeps raining and storming. Almost a storm a day. It's getting a little scary!

Summer is almost over. It's hard to believe. We have 4 weekends before Labor Day and all but one of those is full with stuff to do. CRAZY to think soon it will be SNOWING!

I'm old!

Well not THAT old but I feel old. Monday was my 28th birthday. We actually went out of town for the weekend and took Monday and Tuesday off of work. It was nice to get away. We went to Amish country and shopped around the shops and the outlet malls. It was alot of fun. But it was also nice to get back.

Tuesday evening we got a horrible storm here at the house. I was seriously afraid. We woke up to find 100 acres or more of corn on the ground from the wind and/or damaged from hail. All 100 acres are a total loss and we lost about 4 huge trees and one huge limb fell on the rental house. But the good thing is everyone is ok.

I am a little bummed lately and seriously considering changing my career. I keep getting told I am a great asset to the company and that I am a hard worker, but I now have a 2nd employee in the past year that I have to train to make more money than me and move further up the company than I am. I know life isn't fair, but give me a break. It's like the better you do, the less chance you have for move to another job. I am seriously considering a career path change. Not sure what right now, but I am going to meet with an advisor soon about getting my certification to teach business and IT computers in the secondary level.

So happy (but still not quite having baby fever!)

We talked to Dustin's friends wife yesterday and they are pregnant with twins. I am so excited for them. Her husband is a great friend of Dustin's he met in college and he had a form of lymphoma a few years ago and had to go through stem cell and chemo and radiation. He's been a year and a half cancer free. However, even though they froze some of his swimmers, there weren't enough to take. So they went to a fertility clinic and chose a donor. She called yesterday pregnant with twins! We are both so overjoyed for them and can't wait until we have a free weekend to go and visit them. These are two people who we know will be great parents!

This has been one crazy week. Thursday Dustin's company had a truck rollover from another crazy driver that was infront of Dustin's driver. It's not bad enough Dustin's dad had that truck accident in the spring where that car crossed into his lane, now we have another stupid driver who's car had no turn signals or break lights. Thankfully with this accident, everyone is ok. He spent all night Thursday night at the scene trying to clean up. Unfortunately his driver had some extremely large steel products on his trailer and they had to call in a crane company from WV to lift them out of the ditch. The good thing though is that trucks can be replaced, trailers can be replaced, people can't!!!

Golf

Well we are trying a new hobby. Dustin used to golf when he was in highschool and I have only ever done mini golf or the driving range. I have a company golf outing sunday and it's at a low key golf course so we went and got a cheap set of clubs for me for it (Dustin insisted I had my own clubs so we can go whenever we want now). Last night we decided to go for 9 holes at a local course that is very laid back. I mean there are busch light cans in the garbages, you can tell it's not a classy joint but that suits me just fine. I am not impressed with the country club types and rules. I did ok, I can hit it straight but just not far. lol. We also walked all 9 holes with our clubs on our backs. Wowza, now that is a workout. Anyone who says it's not, hasn't done it or is in superman shape. So we'll see how this weekends tournament goes. It was nice to just go and hit out some frustration and it only costed us $12 total for the 2 of us. Then we went out to eat afterwards. It was nice to just get out!

Rain and More Rain!

Rain and more rain. I shouldn't complain, we are not near as bad as Iowa and I am thankful for that. Today my mom and i went shopping an hour or so away and got stuck in a horrible storm on the way home. I have never driven in water that bad before. There is a good thing about living out here, we don't get the floods, storms, hail, or tornados most other places do. But I seriously was scared today.

On a good note, I did find 2 cute pairs of pants shopping. It sucks shopping anymore with the weight I've gained but I need work pants so I had to break down and buy pants. Hopefully I will be buying NEW smaller pants shortly down the road.

I can't belive it's almost the 4th of July. Time flies so fast anymore. I can remember being little and summer seemed to last forever!!! Now it no more starts and it's over again!

One week of Calorie Counting

And I've almost got it! lol. I started portion control big time and no major snacks between meals. It's amazing how much better I feel and how much energy I have again. I passed up Grasshopper Cake AND peanut butter pie this week. Now that's willpower! I LOVE PEANUT BUTTER PIE! But it was made with reduced everything and if I'm gonna splurge it's gonna be ona real good piece, not a reduced wanna be. lol.

I also started walking my road again. I am still very cautious since Yogi Bear lives around here now and let me tell you he's freaking huge! I can fit my foot in his paw print, no freaking joke! And the bastard ate all my pumpkin plants, squash and zucchini plants we had planted up on the hill. Didn't touch my real garden. Really pissed me off too, I was looking sooo forward to my pumpkins. :( Dustin told me I'd have pumpkins out my kazoo and I was so excited to give them away to little kids I know and stuff. Now I'll have to buy my pumpkins again in the fall. Such a bummer. Couldn't eat the peapods I don't want could he. Yogi and I are going to have words if he keeps this crap up! :)

Why I never found a job in IT?

Because deep down I hate it! Not just dislike it, I HATE IT! I am in the middle of implementing new software at work. We were supposed to go live January 1st. Well it's almost July 1st and we are looking at LATE FALL. Today I spent 2 hours in a live meeting with this company figuring out one small minor problem. Yup, I small stupid problem. This is going to be an extremely long process.

I went to the Dr. last week and had bloodwork done to see if there is a reason why I am SO tired. I haven't heard back yet, I'll wait until Thursday to call them and see what it says. There's got to be SOME reason. She wants me to try YOGA too. Well that should be interesting. I'm not flexible nor am I coordinated enough to do yoga. But if it relieves the everyday stress from work, I am all for it!!!!

This weekend I have off. I am so excited to have a weekend off, especially since everyone else gets a 3 day weekend over the 4th and I have to work that saturday. Bah humbug! I need a bankers job! Most days I like my job, but it's the things like the holiday weekends you never really get that is making me rethink my career path at this company. Every other Saturday and having to be there from 7:00 until 2:00 is not really something I want when I have kids. A one day weekend doesn't really cut it when you have a family.

The Three H's

Hazy, Hot, and Humid. Something we see late July early August around here and it's 90 degrees on the 8th of June. UNREAL!!!! 3 weeks ago today it was SNOWING. It's just crazy.

10 years ago I graduated high school this weekend. Wow, I feel old. lol. It's just weird to look back at the past 10 years in all that I've gone through, done, and accomplished. I guess I do have something to be proud of. My reunion is in July, and I don't think we'll be going. Just not something I am interested in attending.

I feel like crap lately for the past week. Tired all the time, headaches, crabby, it's like I have PMS 3 weeks early. If it doesn't go away this week I'm going to see about getting my iron checked and some other blood work. Something just doesn't feel right.

We didn't get the house up for sherriff sale. It went double what we wanted to pay for it, and frankly we are ok with that for now. We'll figure something out.

Mentally DRAINED!

It's only Monday and I am already drained mentally. I have several projects going on at work plus I am the ONLY one that knows the new computer system so it's my job to train everyone else plus get my regular work done. The software company will be here next week to fix any last minute problems and I have no time to work on everything. It just seems the more the days push on, the further behind I get. And I'm not a slow worker either. It just bugs me that I work with certain people that do nothing 8 hours a day and get paid for it, and then I bust my a$$ and get nowhere for it. It was soooo nice to have 2 days off this weekend and not have to worry about anything except my husband and my dog. I need more full weekends!!!!

On another note, we decided we are going to bid on a house up for sherriff sale. The open bidding is Thursday morning, so we should know by lunch time if we got it or not. We did go look at another house this weekend but it was just horrible. Structurally it's great but cosmetically it's going to take alot of money. And it reeks of cat pee! Now tell me, if I wanted top dollar for house in this county and in this economy, would I put a house up for sale that reeks of cat pee and stains everywhere. I opened the 3/4 bath door off the laundry area and about puked it stunk so bad. It was like they mopped up the cats messes but didn't clean out the mop or the bucket. BLECH!!!!! If the sherrif sale doesn't work out, we are still trailer bound for a little while longer. I'd love to build, but frankly in this economy, who the heck wants to chance it!!!

Day 3 back on weight watchers and I am STARVING!!!! I am only allowed 21 points a day and let me tell you, it's not easy. I am starving all the time! I need to find me some low point high fiber filling snacks.

What makes me smile today!

Someone's blog had this on it today and it inspired me.

1. the sun and 70 degree weather
2. my husband and my dog playing in the yard
3. fresh produce in my cereal
4. a good book
5. HGTV
6. The fact that my laundry is done and my house is clean on a sunday morning.
7. My flowers I planted this past week and that *I* planted them (i'm not the domesticated sort)
8. Watching my brother play with his girlfriends 2 year old. He will be a great father someday.
9. As of right now, both our families are drama free.
10. I life in a neighborhood where everyone beeps and waves when they drive by and an I can leave my keys in my car and not lock my house (this day and age, that's something to smile about!)

2 weeks a year

2 weeks a year....I don't see my husband at all. One week in the spring and one week in the fall. That's when he's working at the farm. Thankfully, the farm is only a crop farm. So he plants corn and then he harvests corn. He LIVES for it, and he LOVES it. This year I have been especially worried since he found out he has bronchitis last thursday and has yet to slow down. But as of 9:00 tonight, he is done for the year. And our life will resume to normal until fall when the corn is taller than me. I don't really mind it, thankfully I am one of those people than can be alone for a day or two and it doesn't really bother me. I can find enough things to keep me busy. My dog on the other hand, he is Dustin's dog and he whined and cried for a whole week because he didn't get to go too!!!!

Funny thing today I found out as well. There's a saying out there about good things come to those who wait and bad things come to those who treat people like crap. Ok, well that's not exactly the saying, but you get what I mean. I worked for a company a few years back that was very unbearable to work for and simply thought that they were invincible and people had to come to their business. Well...today I found out...their establishment is CLOSED! A little part of me, the part of me that has the horns and the pitchfork, are secretly smiliing. Smiling because finally it's realized that you really cannot treat people like crap all the time and expect your life to be perfect. Sooner or later, it will get you!

My new hobby room.

I have spend the past week or so cleaning out the computer room (which is about the size of walk in closet) and making a little scrappy room in the spare bedroom. All that we use the spare bedroom for is when we have overnight guests, which has been once all year, and to store stuff.

Here's the before.And here's the after:

It's not completely done yet, but it works for now. I do need a chair though don't I?!?

Beauty Mark or Mole

Whatever it is, I don't like it. I have one on my face close to my nose I've had for years. Probably since I was born. It bugs me. Plus I worry because it's on my face and with the sun, could it turn into skin cancer? So yesterday I went to the good old Dermatologist to get an opinion. I can have it removed, and it would have to be plastic surgery and the insurance probably won't cover it unless their is reason to believe it's cancerous or precancerous. Or I can leave it alone. I still haven't decided what I am going to do. I'm going to think about it and maybe persue it later. My mom thinks it's my "personality" and can't imagine me without it. I think it's ugly and will be super embarrassed if it starts growing hair. lol.

One good thing though, I got some prescrips for my face acne that he said will work much better than what I am currently using. Woohoo!

Electrifying Monday!

What a Manic Monday. From the time I got to work until the time I left my phone rang non-stop, emails popped up, and people came over looking for answers to problems. Mondays are the worst in my job. I didn't even take a lunch break, but I did eat my 0 pt. progresso soup. lol.

Then about 3:00 p.m. (my coworker and myself are on the same power unit and battery backup) our electic lines to our computers SHORTED OUT! I smelled something burning and then all of a sudden the lights flickered and our computers went black. It was freaky!!! Thankfully maintenance came over to fix it, they weren't done by the time I left but they said they would be by tomorrow. THANK GOD!!!!

Tomorrow should be a better day. I only have to work 1/2 day because I have a dermatologist appointment about an hour away so I get to leave at 11:30 then I am treating myself to a little Kohl's shopping trip since I'll be there anyways. ;)

Sooo Excited!!!

I found out this week one of my good friends is pregnant. She has been married 2 years and her husband just wasn't "ready" until now. She's due in October and she had a little bit of problem in the beginning but all is well now. I am so happy for her.

Which leads me to the question everyone has asked me in the past couple weeks seeing most of our family at the funeral and phone calls about Dustin's dads accident...When is it YOUR turn. I keep telling everyone I am on the 30 year plan. lol. I am going to be 28 in July so at 30 we'll probably start trying. Right now I want to make sure I have a house big enough for the 2 of us, a baby and the dog. And this little trailer just isn't cutting it. We were going to start the blueprints this summer for our house and have it built next year but with the housing market as crappy as it is, we are waiting a while to see how the economy is. That may sound risky now, but we really have no reason not to wait it out.

Other than me HATING this shoebox. lol!

Day 1 Back to Weight Watchers

Well today was Day 1 back to weight watchers. So far, not too bad for just getting back. Slow but sure. I'm hoping that the support from the girls at the dawg will give me the motivationt to keep it up. I also worked out again today. :) That's a good thing too. That's the hardest thing for me to do. But with the time change, getting out at 5:30 and not getting home until 6:00 makes it alot easier to keep motivated when it's daylight out.

Ok...my total points I'm allowed for the day is 22. Plus 30 flex points for the week. So far I am at 25 points for the day. I know that's a little high, but it's not horrible for being the first day back.

I am hoping I can do this. I'm sick of feeling like this!